What Does Faith and God Have to Do With Becoming a Ninja?
I got on my knees. I looked at the ceiling. I cried. And then I admitted it…
I am weak, I feel alone, I am scared, I can’t do this on my own! Do you even exist? Are you real? Please be real. HELP ME. I need your help. I don’t know what to do. I’m lost.
For the first time in my life – I was trying to talk to God
It’s Scary to Admit This
Soon thereafter I found myself attending a Sunday Service. I had no idea what they were talking about. Half the time it didn’t even sound like English.
Yet, I found myself feeling at peace, relaxed, calm.
Week after week, I kept going. It’s funny looking back on it, 3 years ago to be exact. I had no clue what those dudes up front were talking about. They were reading text from this massive book. People’s hands were raised high, music was blaring, people kept on talking about this dude named Jesus.
All I could say to myself was “I got no idea what they’re talking about… But I definitely feel better when I come here”
I Will Not Lie To You
For the past 6 months I have wanted to write this post. But I’ve been scared to do it.
Religion, spirituality, God – they are sensitive topics. What if people get angry? What if people think I’m trying to convert them? Will this turn people off?
But it’s not about me – it’s about the truth. I talk about goals, discipline, focus, money, and sacrifice all as critical components to achieve a dream.
I discuss my life because because it’s evidence you can follow a dream. I have identified the pieces of the puzzle to discover and live my dream. I share my pieces with you – so you can live it as well.
If I don’t share how Faith has impacted me… I’m hiding my own truth. [Click to Tweet]
Don’t misunderstand me – this isn’t a story to convert you. It’s not about that. It’s about expressing the most critical components that has allowed me to live my dream.
My Faith and Dream are One
In stepping forward to pursue my dream I have developed immense faith in God.
I’m all about goals, plans, budgets, and organization but at the core- is my faith. [Click to Tweet]
This post is about telling the truth. It’s about no longer hiding the single most important reason I am following my dream: The pursuit of my dream is about deepening my relationship with God.
The Undeniable Impact Faith Has On My Dream
There are a variety of specific ways that my faith has impacted my dream. Below I share 8 of these.
1. It Has Pushed Me Through in Moments of Doubt
I have had moments of tears, doubt and insecurity. I have had so many chances to give up. But every time I get close to quitting, I am forced to challenge myself “Do I really have faith?” “God, I must learn to trust you.”
I now see challenge and struggle as an opportunity to deepen my relationship with God. Anyone can have faith when all is good – it’s when the struggle arises that faith is tested.
2. I Am Action Oriented
The only way to prove I have faith is to take action. Anyone can sit on a couch all day long praying. But true faith means that we step out into the world, do something that scares us and trust that it will work out for the better.
3. It’s Not About The Outcome, It’s about Connecting to God
Moment after moment I am forced to admit “I have no idea how this will turn out”. When I moved to Japan I had no idea what I was getting into. I took action and felt at peace as I would continually tell myself “God, I’ll play my part and you’ll play yours.”
As I face situation after situation and somehow make it through- my awe and amazement of God increases.
4. Every “Failure” is Viewed as a Blessing
Because I believe God is guiding me, I see “failure” (for lack of a better word) as something that I have been given to accelerate my learning. I have been handed this to teach me. Every time I fail and push through I become stronger mentally and better able to handle the next challenge that comes my way. I thank God for each “failure”.
5. The Dream is No Longer “Just About Me”
I didn’t plan to start a blog when I came to Japan. I’d lived here for 7 months before I wrote one blog post. The idea came to me at in the midst of the night, at 2am. I suddenly woke up, flung myself out of bed and said out loud:
“Oh my God! I need to start sharing this.”
… … Then I went back to sleep. The next day The 30 Year Old Ninja began. Now, this dream is no longer just about me and what I want to do. I feel compelled to move forward by a force beyond me. It’s about learning exactly what it takes to follow a dream and sharing that with you.
The reason I feel so strongly that you need to follow your dream is because I believe it can connect you with God.
6. I Am Comfortable With Ambiguity
Ambiguity is always scary – but now, I am able to step back, close my eyes, take a breath, and remind myself “This is an opportunity to strengthen my faith”.
7. Everyday Matters
I don’t sit at my place thinking “I can’t wait to achieve my dream” – rather I think “I can’t wait to take on today!” Each and every moment is an opportunity to deepen my relationship with the creator of the universe. This drives me out of bed and thrusts me forward into the excitement of each day.
If pursuing my dream is about connecting to God then each and everyday is an opportunity to do this. Therefore every day of my life really does matter. That’s a wonderful feeling.
8. It Teaches Me To Enjoy The Mystery
I’ll admit it – I can be a little bit intense sometimes. I love goals, planning, organization, and daily objectives. I can get caught up in trying to do a million things at one time.
My faith allows me to step back and just breathe. It forces me to slow down and appreciate the beauty in all the madness. Everyday I try to take a moment to just look at what is happening around me – thousands of people running from place to place. All of us with incredibly complex minds with millions of thoughts – and yet, all of us just want to feel happiness and peace of mind. It’s wild, crazy, and beautiful all at the same time.
Please Do Not Misunderstand
This post isn’t about pushing my religious beliefs upon you. Rather it’s about sharing the single most important piece of the puzzle in the pursuit of my dream.
Without my relationship to God – I would have never tried to become a ninja. [Click to Tweet]
Please don’t take this in a manner it wasn’t intended. It’s about telling my truth – plain and simple .