The Pain, Hurt, and Tears of Following a Dream.
January 4th, 2013
“I don’t want you to go”
I heard the tears in her voice, then saw it in her eyes.
I didn’t know what to say… So I said nothing.
I hugged each of my family members. They turned and walked to their car.
I didn’t want to cry, but the tears came anyways.
Here I was, heading back to Japan, to follow my dream.
And all I could do, was cry…
I Never Expected It
I’ve lived in Japan for a year and a half.
I thought the hard part was over.
When I first came here, everything was novel. It was a new and exciting life.
I was blind to the distance, the challenges, the struggles… It was all just “part of it”.
As I was driven to the airport I couldn’t stop hearing the words:
“I don’t want you to go”.
I couldn’t hold back my tears.
I cried. And cried. And cried.
The Pain is Part of It
It’s crazy, right?
I quit my career as an educator. I moved to the other side of the world. I’ve faced unemployment. Been in danger of deportation. I moved to a new city, where nobody knew my name. All in a country where I can’t even speak the language.
In theory, all the “hard stuff” is done.
But theory and life don’t always align…
“Fearless” is Not The Answer.
At times I feel like I get undeserved credit. People say “you are brave”, “you are fearless”.
But that’s not true. I feel fear. I feel pain.
The difference isn’t what I feel… It’s how I respond. [Click to Tweet]
Pain doesn’t stop me. Nor does fear.
It’s a mental perspective.
I stare pain in the face. It is a test. It allows me to prove how bad I want it.
I have not run from pain, and will not run from pain.
If I refuse to stop, by definition I am unstoppable.
I will follow my dream – no matter what it takes.
Is it worth it?
Here is the bottom line, and why I share this story with you:
Pain is not to be avoided. If you dare to follow your dream you will face situations and challenges you never could have imagined.
Is it hard?
Yes, it is.
But do you know what’s harder?
Living a life half-lived.
Sitting on the sidelines, never getting in the game.
The pain I feel today will bring me freedom and opportunity tomorrow.
I’d rather feel the pain of of living than the pain of regret. [Click to tweet]
It’s your choice… Will you choose to follow your dream?